ho hum....have you ever had one of those days where everything felt awful and you were just stupendously unhappy? Well I'm having one of those months. I've been unhappy for awhile but lately I've bene more then that. I've been in this horrible black funk for a while and I'm sick of it. My weight is the biggest it's ever been minus children I don't even fit into my fat jeans. I'm working out alot and nothing seems to be helping. I've taking 3 pregnancy tests just to be sure and I'm not pregnant so I really don't know why I'm so damn big right now. I quit taking my BC which was really making me icky and I thought after I quit I'd lose some wieght but nope nothing. My boobs are HUGE!!! It's like most of the weight is going there and damnit this sucks. I've grown a whole cup size!! anymore weight gain and I will officially not leave the house until it's gone. I started taking a diet pill and it works wonderfully during a workout. I don't get tired as much as I normally do but it does make me lightheaded and my heart beats really fast. UGH somedays I just wish I wasn't me that I could take a break from me and let someone else be me for awhile!!!