Wow call me the blog neglector from hell...lol. Hmmm what's new with me...not much. I've started a new exercise program and feeling good :) :) My secret pal Okieminnie sent me a letter and a postcard and that was the coolest!!! I LOVE SNAILMAIL!!!! Hmm Kath and Kevin came over and that was so much fun:) Jo, J and Mo came over and YEA!! I finally got to meet J!!!! Then this weekend Jaime and Clifton came over that was fun! We're having a bbq at thier house on the 4th :) Then going to see the fireworks on Bragg...anyone wanna come?? This weekend we are going to see Land of the Dead with J, and Mo. After that I have no idea. I know Matt's sister is goign to try and come up and my brother and SIL and then matt's parents in Aug. Matt leaves so soon. I'm so upset about it. I love being with him!!! He's my best friend and I feel like he just got home and now he's leaving again :( Oh well 6 months isn't that long it just sucks.
Well hopefully I've updated you all :) :)

Well Ash woke up perfect not a spot on her and in a fairly good mood!! YEA!!! I am SOOO tired. I slept like crap last night. I kept thinking my dumbass husband would call adn tell me when the ehll he's coming home. But seeing as it's almost noon I'm guessing not until Maybe Monday. I shoudln't be so annoyed but I am. It's not that hard to hop online and tell me what the He** is going on.
Looks like the beg problem in my house is almost over. I think once the rain starts up next week though they will be back in full force but as long as keep shifting stuff around and killing the ones I see we should be ok. I am Raid the house again tonight and tommorrow b/c of the upcoming rain. And once payday is here I'm going and getting those granules Heather told me about!!
I'm really just cranky today! We've been inside too much I was afraid to take Ash out while she was sick and now it's hot as Heck out so we're not going anywhere till tonight.
I'm discovering more an more that I am cranky way too much!! I really need to just get over myself and get over things I can't change..KWIM.

People will never cease to amaze just when you think you know someone they 360 into the rudest, most self involved person ever!!! I mean Im sorry you are going through a rough patch but that doesn't give you the right to ignore any other problems around you. A friend is a friend 24/7/365 not just when the mood strikes!! UGH...Whatever!! I'm too old for this shit!
Matt should be getting home soon. Ash is still pretty sick!! This whole ordeal has been so hard on her!! I can't even begin to describe how it felt to go into her room and see her with that rash on her!! The fevers were so scary!! I really wish Matt had been here for this. I took pictures so he could see what it looks like in case it happens again. Mom said it happened to me 3 times before I turned 3!! Some of the kids get seizures b/c their fever's shoot up so quickly!!
Mo, Melly, Lindsay, Sandy,Jenn, Mandy Thank you so much for letting me vent about this!! Poor Sara I vent to you about everything...lol. I appreciate you all SO SO much!! It's so hard when things bad happen to your kids b/c you feel so responsible for them you feel like it's your fault that they happened. I know it's not true but she has had a hell of a month and I feel like there was something I did or didn't do that contributed to all of this! I'm just so glad that it's not scarlett fever!!
Thanks again to all that helped me through this rough patch!!!

So due to events beyond my control it has become necessary to Potty train Zach completely. Well all that's left is night time. His #2 skills during the day need work but night time I hadn't tried yet. Well we tried last night and Guess what HE WOKE UP DRY!!!! GO ZACH!!!
Also THANK YOU SARA!!!!! Sara suggested trying yogurt for Ash's rash eating it and applying it directly to the rash well I did that and OMG in the morning is usually when Ash is the worst and she woke up this morning with it almost gone!! I did it again this morning and I'm going to do it again tongiht I'm confident it will be gone by tommorrow and then she's starting on eating yogurt twice a day which she LOVES!!!! so THANKS SARA YOU ROCK!!!!

Today by far is a super shitty day. I'm crying and pissed off and I'm so so angry right now.

Golly things are so BBBOOORRRIINNNGG around here lately. I miss Matt so so so much. It doesn't help that I went through old pictures of us and I am reading our Korea journals. Matt is a great husband sometimes it's hard to see that...you know. Sometimes you just let the petty and the stupid pile up and you take for granted what you shouldn't I fuss at him alot but he means the world to me and I need to tell him that more. I don't want to be with anyone else but him!!

today was a long long day. Not much happened. I really really miss matt!!! Ashlee continues to amaze me with how much she is learning to say and how much she understands is so cool!!! She likes to do what she's told which is really really nice :) :) And she says Me Good Girl while she does it..lol. Zach and her have been getting alot wonderfully lately hugging and everything I'm just in shock!!

so today was a good day. The kids were nice to each other. It rained alot so theat sucked only one bad thing happened today. Obviously in a day filled with handholding and hugging by two little creatures who before today hated each other, a mom such as myself would feel the need to photograph said events. Well not happening..lol. Said mother has lost the camera..lol. I'm cheerful b/c I'm too weary right now not to be but dmanit if I don't find it soon I will go to cranky. I have no idea where it was last b/c Last matt had it. grr.. Ok well I'm off to look for the camera...wish me luck!!