My life

just an update

2006-12-12T05:08:00.000-05:00

Not much has been going on here. Just the usual. Matt's on leave so it's nice to have him home everynight. Well tonight is the only night I can say that seeing as the people at his work cannot seem to operate without him and have called him in everynight. Tonight he turned his cell off and turned the lights off in the living room he said there was no way he was going in..LOL. Zach's sick though :( Poor little guy he spent the whole day wrapped up in a blanket with me :( :(
Friday we went over to Jen's for dinner with her, her dh, Melissa and Chuck. It was fun the kids all goofed around. It was all boys aside from Naomi who is only 10 months. So needless to say Ash was outnumbered..LOL. Course everywhere she went the boys followed...LOL> I think Matt and I are going to have our hands full..lol.
Melissa is signing her son up for Gymnastics in Jan so I think I'll join her and take Ash. And then Jen and I are enrolling the boys in Tae kwon do. It will be nights and Ash and Jen's son will be in the same class Zach will be a different one the classes are cheap and Jen and I get free self defense lessons which is cool..lol. So that plus Zach's speedstackers and with him starting soccer next year it should be a busy busy year. Odd to think this time next year I'll have two kids in school!!!
Well that's about it going on here. We're heading out to Tn this friday I'm pretty excited to see the in-laws. I can't really call them that anymore b/c they don't feel like in-laws they feel like family whose always been there. I hear all these horror stories from other people about there in-laws and there BIL's or SIL's and I really lucked out. I love my whole family! They all rock!! I keep in touch with my SIL but I'd be lying if I said it was constant. I need to keep emailing her I'm just so bad with email lately. I love her and I'd like to get to know her better. My BIL I'd really like to get to know. I don't know if it's the age difference or what but Matt doesn't seem to keep in touch with him as much as he should and hopefully with the new year we can change that. Matt should be promoted next year and hopefully we should be able to travel more and see all the family more I miss them!

Boredom

2006-11-30T11:21:00.000-05:00

I'm so tired. Matt's at a fundraiser and Ash is asleep. I need to clean but yea it's not happening right now..LOL. That little boys mom never did come by. I really hope she isn't just taking it lightly. The boy said he was being teased every day from that boy. It's only the 3rd grade!! It can't be good for him!! I talked to Zach's teacher and she said to try and find the boy's address (shouldn't be hard to do since I walked him home..lol) then give it to her. I already have the boys teachers name. And then if I see him again try and get the other boys name. She said she'd talk to the teacher and see if they can't determine which boy it is (that's if I can't find the addy or the name) And they will keep an eye on him. I wasn't sure how involved to get in fact I really don't want to get too involved it should be the mom who is involved. But I wanted to ask the teacher first to see what she thought. So hopefully this way the teacher will keep a better eye on him and keep the teasing from happening at least at school. Out of school there is nothing they can do. Where does a 3rd grader learn how to be bully?? You guessed it his parents. It's just an awful situation. And one I hope that Zach won't have to go through. As of right now Zach is liked by all the kids but this is Kindergarten. Zach does get his feelings hurt absolutely easily and I'm so afraid that he'll get picked on later.

Awww man!!

2006-11-28T15:39:00.000-05:00

I just realized that when I changed my skin I lost all of my comments :( :(

Wow time has flown

2006-11-28T14:54:00.000-05:00

My SIL just sent me her blog link and it inspired me to at least try and keep up with my own. It's been nearly a year since I posted though. I usually use myspace..lol. Today I did nothing. Literally nothing. I have a buttload to do but I feel like arse. I quit smoking and I feel tired and cranky and I'm coughing. I forgot how fun this stage of quitting was...LOL. Matt and I went to pick up Zach from school today. It's so much like a high school there. Not in the actually school but with all the parents standing in there little cliche's I fit in nowhere. I hate picking him up. I feel so out of place. Most of my friends don't have children or if they do they have them Ashlee's age so I don't know anyone there. And you can't just join up with another group they deflect outsiders. Sounds silly I know. But I've seen them do it. Even Matt remarked on how that happens. At any rate so I was standing with matt and Ash and Zach's class came out. He apparently has been doing really good in his journal. They have these little journals they have to write and draw in everyday and Zach has been just scribbling in his. Well the teachers told us during Parent-Teacher Conferences that he should be doing more in there and they explained what it is they expect out of him. So we sat him down and long story short he's not drawing pictures with a story to go withit!! I'm so proud of him!!! On the way home we were all talking Zach as ususal was up ahead running home (that boy is FAST) well the crossing guard all of the sudden said "BOYS CUT IT OUT" and 2 boys pass us arguing. One was taunting the other one. Well I look over and the little boy whose being teased was crying and so upset he couldn't ride. So I got down to his level and asked him if he was ok. He was in the 3rd grade. I asked him if he wanted me to walk him home and he said yes so Matt and the kids went on ahead and I walked this little boy home. He was crying most of the way. I managed to cheer him up before we got him but once he saw his mom he broke down again. He said his mom thinks everyone is nice to him at school and from what he had told me this boy was pretty much a regular bully to him. Pushing him off his bike and making fun of him in recess. I asked him how he handled it did he get upset and cry everytime. And he said yes I said well you can't do that. He said well my mom said it was natural to cry I told him it was but that he couldn't show that boy how much it was upsetting him or the boy would never stop. I told his mom where he lived and hopefully she'll come talk to me once he calms down to get the whole story about what the boy was saying on the way home. I also really hope that she will talk to the boys parents and make them aware of how there son is behaving.

2005-12-22T11:52:00.000-05:00

OK OK I guess I'll start updating.
Where to start. Charlie is HUGE now. He's super big doggie!! He's pretty good too. Still pees when he's nervous and scared but lol that's not to often. Unless someone new comes here and then it's like EVERYWHERE...lol
Zach and ash are doing good. I'm sick again. I'm always sick it seems like. I have a headcold :(
Matt's doing good I'm hoping he's home soon. He finally got his promotion fixed and we are waiting on backpay!! YAY!
It's almost Christmas YAY!! I can't wait!

2005-10-22T17:03:00.000-05:00

I'm such a bad blogger! I haven't kept this blog or my other blog up at all. This new puppy is really keeping me busy. He has SO many toys and I praise him when he uses them but he still managed to chew up Ash's Elmo pieces, Zach's flip flops and my Fave. black old navy flip flops. Yes they were cheapies but they don't sell them right now and I honestly wore those things everywhere so I was really bummed out! The kids and I have been sick so that really sucks I hate being sick :( Zach btw is now FULLY potty trained!! YAY for him!! He still needs a pull up at night but only b/c he's SUCH a deep sleeper and doesn't wake up to go. He is almost 5 so I was really really worried about him and I knew I was pestering him too much so of course once I decided I didn't care anymore and just to leave it alone that's when he was like ok since you don't care I'll go...LOL. I have NEVER been happier!! 1 diapered child down and 1 to go!

I've been trying hard to get this weight off and it's SO hard! I'm still having my problems (if I talk to you alot then you know what I mean) so I think that has alot to do with why it's not coming off. My MIL keeps telling me to go see an endocrinologist so I need to make an appt with my doc and have him send me to them. It's such a pain I mean I'm NOT that fat! I'm 5'3 and 145 that's not that bad. Last time I saw that doc he told me that I need to eat 800 cals a day and that if I kept gaining pretty soon I'd need gastric. Why kind of nutjob says that! I know I'm not happy with my weight but am I at a healthy weight yes I think so. a little above it yeah but I'm not like 200 pds.

Matt's gotten ALOT better at calling home! It was SUCH a source of stress for me. So I'm glad that's it's working itself out. I'm ready for him to hang up him AF uniform and put back on the Marines!!

OK I need to clean the house and worry about dinner. Mom is still here so I'm getting a MUCH needed break. I really want to go on vacation though. I need to just get away from all the stress here. Not the kids really they arn't that stressful at all. It's stressful people and I could really use a change of scenery..:)

2005-10-04T09:54:00.000-05:00

MY dog had to get put down yesterday this has been a majorly shitty week for me and then to top it off tommorrow is my bday.... great.

2005-09-27T13:02:00.000-05:00

I just got back from Jersey it was a nice visit matt and I got a few things figured out. This deployment is make or break for us. Either he gets his act together or I won't be here when he gets back. I'm not asking him to do anything abnormal or change anything all I'm saying is hey pick up a damn phone and talk to you're wive and kids every now and then. Really not a big deal. If it can't then I understand that but every other freaking spouse has to tell me oh I heard from so and so today it's like nice they can call and mine can't. GRRRR.

I've also decided that I'm sick of people that need me to come to them. I have this friend who just dissappeared on me I PMed her I IMed her I sent her myspace messages I mean what more could I do. She wasn't online so I'm not going to call and be like um why arn't you on? I'm sorry but if I'm putting in effort it HAS to go 2 ways. Well I see her and she's like yeah you can pick up a phone ya know. I was like WTF you're the one not answering anything online I'm sure as hell not going to track you down and say hey be my friend. If I write and email and IM then I'm fullfulling my end of the bargain. If you chose not to answer then let that be on you and say hey ya know what I didn't try either. I hate that crap. I really really hate that crap.

2005-09-14T09:47:00.000-05:00

OK I'm getting bad about updating..lol. I was doing good there for awhile. I want to change the pic on my layout. Melly how do I match up the size??
Not much is going on here. Just patiently awaiting Ophelia. I'm wondering around F'ville with Jaime the next couple days and getting Cliff's bday stuff :) THen on Sunday it's OFF TO NJ!!!! YEA!!!! I'm so so so so excited!!! I can't wait to see matt! I got a new tae bo dvd the other one was too easy. This one is better but still not what I'm looking for. There is one that's fatblasting so I'm going to try that one. Other then that not too much going on over here :)

2005-09-07T10:29:00.000-05:00

So I started Tae Bo. I figure that and my 2 miles walking a day and I should be in tip top shape by the time Matt gets home. I want him to get off the plane and think OMG that's MY wife..LOL. I only have Tae Bo basic and you have this side kick thingy that you do and you have to do it double time. That's the only thing that's really working. I think once I master that I should move on to the advanced workout. I'm not even breathing hard until the kicks start and that's at the end of the tape :( In some ways I'm in better shape then I thought but in others I'm not. My arms look flabby but I have really strong arms. I guess it's from carrying 2 kids all day...ROFL. I miss Matt!! The other day the kids got to talk to him on webcam and that was SOOO awesome! Zach was mystified adn Ash was like IT"S DADDEEEE..LOL. So cute!!

2005-09-02T14:08:00.000-05:00

So today was a good day. Mom was here so I got to sleep in!! YEA!!! I went to the commissary and I'm not kidding you people here the line was SO long that it took an hour and a half just to checkout!!! How crazy is that!!!! It was annoying for sure but I'm still in a good mood. I filled up the car b/c it was on E I was expecting a long line but nope no line at all :) Now I'm just waiting on Kath to get off work so we can go shopping. I need to get some new tarts and Zach's comfortor ripped so he needs a new one. We SO don't have the money for that but oh well such is life I suppose. Matt IMed last time and I guess eh kind've saved some guys life. No no war story or anything so dramatic. He's in NJ training they are basically sitting there twiddling their fingers. The training is for only 9 days yet they are there for like 35 days! They are sleeping in tents and etc. basically everyone is pissed off. Anyway back to my story....they I guess decided to give them something to do so they ran a course in the middle of the day. Well some guy makes it through the course and overheats. He's convulsing and not sweating and nearly passing out. SO while everyone else just stands there. Matt strips his gear off and dousing the guy with water keeps him awake and gives him water. The medic strolls over and this idiot had NO idea what to do. Matt had to prep the guys arm and show the idiot where the vein was. So the medic gets the needle in and then is like UM. I don't know how to stop the blood. DUR. So matt stops the blood and hooks up the line and the IV bag and sits with the guy until the EMT's get there. Awww my little hero. I mean no he didn't really save the guys life persay. But it still was a damn good thing he was there :) :)

2005-09-01T17:43:00.000-05:00

ok ok Sparks I'm updating..LOL
First and foremost Sandy I know you read my blog so if you are reading this then PLEASE let me know if you all are ok and if you got out in time. I'm worried sick!
Not much going on around here just WORRYING about Sandy!
What really never fails to amuse me is that once you're a Bush hater you are always a Bush hater and for some reason cannot get you're head out of you're own ass long enough to see that not everything is his fault. OMG NC is having a gas shortage. LETS BLAME BUSH. I'm so sick of everyone blaming Bush for everything. I happen to support our president! People make him out to be a Nazi or something. And people are SO damn uninformed!! I mean sure you can read an article and quote it but newsflash people. NEWS IS BIASED!!! People really think that just b/c it's written it must be true. It's SO irratating. Yeah I know I just misspelled that word. I'm just so sick of hearing his name and negative comments. Ok I'm off my soapbox now :)

2005-08-23T17:12:00.000-05:00

Howdy :) Today was a pretty good day :) Thanks for all the suggestions! I really appreciate it!
Today Nikki came by and dropped off some pilates video's for me. Flat abs here I come...LOL. Then Amanda stopped by with Nathanial. He is so damn cuddley!!!! I'm babisitting him tommorrow. Ash and him were so cute together! She keep rubbing his head and they were cuddling together it was adorable!!
I have my first spousal support meeting on Friday. OMG I'm so nervous!!! I don't know why but I am. Just stomach in knots nervous. A room full of people I don't know and have never met is just like OMG!! It's silly I know but I get so nervous and I feel like everyone is sitting there just thinking what a big dork I am. I"m about as socially ignorant as you can get....LOL

2005-08-22T20:24:00.000-05:00

First adn foremost THANK YOU MELLY!! I LOVE MY NEW BLOG SKIN!!! THANKS SO MUCH! Just so you all know....I have no idea what I'm doing when ti comes to blogging. So my friend Melly reskined the blog and made it look all purdy and now it's perfect! I LOVE IT!!
Not much is going on today. I played a rousing game of hungry hungry hippo with my son. My daughter tried to play too but she gave up quickly and went to go play with his cars...LOL.
Something really sad happened last night. My son normally goes to bed quite early. Well last night as I was heading to bed I hear really soft crying coming from my sons room. I opened his door and he was on his bed holding a picture book I made him from the last time matt was gone. It's filled of pictures of his daddy. He was looking at this one picture and just crying. Just sitting there by himself quietly crying. He said he didn't want to wake me up but he just was missing daddy. It was abou tthe saddest thing I've seen in a long time. How do you help a 4 year old understand deployments?? We talked with him before hand but he just didn't quite get it. My heart is breaking for him!

2005-08-22T19:10:00.000-05:00

my big guy :)

2005-08-22T19:09:00.000-05:00

my little girl :)

2005-08-22T10:26:00.000-05:00

Hey guys and gals :)
I'm in a really good mood today. And that is mostly due to Miss Karen sending me people!! I really appreciate all the well wishes and kind words!! It really really helps hearing people say positive things and it's such a nice surprise to come to you're blog and see all these wonderful comments!! Thank you all so much!!!
Today is a nice day for a change I might take the rugrats for a walk. I have that bet to win you know...LOL. It's really taking some getting used to this humidity. Arizona was so dry and it's so humid here it's like night and day.
Yesterday night was just full of happy surprises. Matt's still in the states doing training and the training doesn't start until tommorrow so we've been able to IM and whatnot well last night Matt IM's me and guess what....He had his webcam set up!!! Yea!! I got to see my guy!!! It was so wonderful to see his face and see his reactions to things I type and all that. It was just great! I also had to see myself on webcam for the first time and YIPES I hate that thing...LOL. I tried to make it face the desk but he insisted on me facing it towards me. I gotta say it's going to take some time to get used to being on cam like that...LOL. If I were to ever go on a tv show I'd be like that brady bunch kid and freezeup...lol.
I also think I made a new friend last ngiht. A girl here in town that is on a couple boards I am, IMed me to see how I was doing. We ended up talking for a while and we have SOO much in commen. It was really neat. Hopefully if weather permits we are going to be going for a walk tommorrow with out kiddies :)
I also have been talking to Robin alot and that has helped me out more then anything else. She is in almost the exact same situation I am. Our kids are the same ages, he dh is gone for the same amount of time. The only diff is the branches of military and that she's pregnant! It's so helpful having someone to chat with who really does know EXACTLY what you are going through! And we seem to have a ton in commen so we have loads to talk about. She's probably getting sick of me that's how much I IM her...LMAO.
Well I started smoking again. It was inevidablt (sorry sp) I knew I'd start again. of course I only smoke when the kids are in bed. NEVER AROUND THEM and NEVER when they are up and can see me. I'm almost out I need to go buy more. But I can't rationalize it to myself to get up and go to the store just for a pack of ciggerettes...LOL.

2005-08-19T20:18:00.000-05:00

Well today was day number 1 of 240. Things went good today. I was fine until I talked to Matt on IM now I'm really bummed out :(
The kids were good today. It was not a good day for Zach's hands though...LOL First he got his finger slammed int he door then he slammed his hand in between the toliet and the lid...LMAO. Poor guy! But man can he scream!! Well nothing else is going on here. It's dullsville today. I worked out for 2 hours damnit I will win that bet!

2005-08-19T06:35:00.000-05:00

Well he's gone! I didn't even cry! I was upset for sure. But I guess I've just resigned myself to the fact that he has to go and that no amount of crying will change that. I'm sure as hell going to miss him though!

2005-08-14T21:29:00.000-05:00

Ok I'm updating...LOL. I'm sitting here with a YuengYing in my hand and cleaning out the storage closet..LOl. We cleaned out the outside one earlier and now it's safe to say that after 12 months Kath will need no baby clothes..lol. Mia will be so cute in all her new clothes. Once Matt leaves and the holidays are over I can get started on dressing her for her first 12 months..lol. Poor Kath and Kevin have no idea how much I'm going to spoil their little girl..lol. Now all I need is to find someone to spoil my kids and I'm all set..lol. I can't believe our microwave is broken it's so sad. Matt is calling his parents tonight and seeing if they can loan us the money for a new one. I know you said to wait Kath but I reallyjust can't wait I need my microwave!! I'm in a pretty good mood today still stressed. Matt leaves in 3 days so that sucks.
Tommorrow I have my very first deployment briefing. I've never been but most of the wives are going. So hopefully I can meet some people..lol
I really need to fix my blog it's so ugly and I hate the way the pictures made everything slide down. I'm such a blog dunce though I really wish I knew what I was doing.

2005-08-10T11:30:00.000-05:00

I'm in a bad mood today. I'm so sick of people coming to me with their stupid damn problems and arrogant bitching but not even giving a crap when it comes to my problems. Gee my husband is leaving for 7 months next week I wonder why I'm sad I wonder why I'm cranky. But do any of my so called friends give a crap ... no. I am so sick of being there for other people and then it's like oh sorry when it's me that has a problem. Lately I have been alot more honest with people and alot more yeah wow what a great big problem you have. And if people don't like it then screw it. I can't be strong or supportive for anyone else but my kids and my husband right now. I just don't have it. I'm frustrated and it's not even this deployment that has me frustrated it's all this uncertinty surrounding everything. Matt's crosstraining right after and possibly switching branches and it's all just so overwhelming. Then knowing I have to be wholely responsible for ash's upbringing is really a tremendous pressure. I don't know if I did good with Zach I have no idea. I mean he's a 4 year old who's not yet potty trained I feel like somehow I did something wrong. Now to have to do it with Ash I feel like I might somehow screw it up. I don't feel capable to do it. But this is all just whiney bitching. My best friend doesn't even respond to my posts on the board so that should tell me somthing. Either she doesn't care or I just need to get over it.

2005-08-08T13:46:00.000-05:00

Wow it's been a long long time since I last posted!! My in-laws just left. We threw Ash a mock 2nd bday. Matt will be in Iraq for her actual one so we did it early. Ash had a blast. The cake was cinderella and it was beautiful....

Ash obviously loved it!!

She made out like a bandit tons of presents! Everyone was sad around Matt though. They knew he was going to be leaving soon so everyone was just so bummed out. I finally lost it last night. We were joking around and I was play crying and then before I knew it I was crying for real. More like bawling to tell you the truth. I just cna't believe he's leaving again. he just came home! I'm going to miss him sooo much!

Very sad news

2005-07-15T15:12:00.000-05:00

It is with the saddest heart that I pass on the following news:

Please join me in remembering a great icon of the
entertainment community. The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast
infection, and complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He
was 71.
Doughboy is survived by his wife, Play Dough, two children, John Dough,
and Jane Dough, who has one in the oven. He is also survived by his
elderly father, Pop Tart.
Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of celebrities
turned out to pay their respects, including Mrs. Buttersworth, Hungry
Jack, The California Raisins, Betty Crocker, the Hostess Twinkies and
Captain Crunch. The grave site was piled high with flours. Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy, and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded.
Doughboy rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with
turnovers. He was not considered a very smart "cookie", wasting much of his
dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times, he still, as a
crusty old man,was considered a roll model for millions.
The funeral was held at 3:50 for about 20 minutes.

Lori on AFA posted this...LOL.

2005-07-14T10:06:00.000-05:00

So life is boring over here. I've begun my battle of the bulge and it's not going so good but damnit it can be done. I will be back to my normal weight by the time Matt gets back home!! I hate it (how I look) so very very much. It's an obsession almost. I think about everything I put in my mouth :(.

2005-07-08T14:24:00.000-05:00

ho hum....have you ever had one of those days where everything felt awful and you were just stupendously unhappy? Well I'm having one of those months. I've been unhappy for awhile but lately I've bene more then that. I've been in this horrible black funk for a while and I'm sick of it. My weight is the biggest it's ever been minus children I don't even fit into my fat jeans. I'm working out alot and nothing seems to be helping. I've taking 3 pregnancy tests just to be sure and I'm not pregnant so I really don't know why I'm so damn big right now. I quit taking my BC which was really making me icky and I thought after I quit I'd lose some wieght but nope nothing. My boobs are HUGE!!! It's like most of the weight is going there and damnit this sucks. I've grown a whole cup size!! anymore weight gain and I will officially not leave the house until it's gone. I started taking a diet pill and it works wonderfully during a workout. I don't get tired as much as I normally do but it does make me lightheaded and my heart beats really fast. UGH somedays I just wish I wasn't me that I could take a break from me and let someone else be me for awhile!!!

2005-07-02T10:27:00.000-05:00

Thanks for all the comments girls :) Thanks Laura I love snail mail I'm totally excited to get more!! Did you get the letter I sent you back?
Not much going on here. I've been totally wiped out today :( Just exhausted :( My mom is coming over tonight so Matt and I can go to the grocery store in the morning and to go see a movie with Mo and J tommorrow. I'm so excited!!!! I haven't heard from Mo so I hope they can still go. We're going to see Land of the Dead. Matt and I also decided that after this movie that unless it's something big like StarWars or Lord of the Rings type movie then we are no longer going to the theaters here. I've been 3 times and all 3 somebody talked through the movie, the seats don't recline and for $8 each it's just not worth it. I hate the theaters here. Matt also made a big decision to try and cross back over into the Marines. They have openings in intel and the AirForce can't offer him that right now and we don't know when they will be able to offer that. He can't stand what he's doing now and I think he misses the pride of being a Marine. Not that being in the Air Force isn't something to be proud of b/c it is. It's just a diff mentality b/t the 2 branches. I'm excited for any decision he makes I'm proud that he wants to continue to serve his country and if that continuing service takes us back to the Marines then so be it.. :)
Matt and I have no plans tonight. Probably go to bed early and get up a little late...LOL. I love it when we both get to sleep in. It's rare b/c mom isn't normally here maybe once a week during the day but overnight visits are so awesome b/c then we can just lay around and really get that alone time. I cleaned the fishtank again today. We discovered that we need a new filter, the one we have isn't doing the job. We also discovered something important our bettas have been in vases and while they are getting the oxygen they need they arn't getting the water as warm as they need it so we have to get a 10 gallon tank with a seperator so they don't attack each other and we already have a tank warmer so we'll hook that one up. Also and this is SOOO cool. Our bettas have been doing what we thought was just blowing bubbles. Well what they are doing is making bubblenests the male betta blows bubbles making a bubblenest and then mates with the female and she lays her eggs the male keeps the eggs in the nest for 2-3 days and then they start hatching. What's funny is that the mail betta raises them not the female the female actually has to be removed so she doesn't get attacked...lol.
Ok enough with the pet lesson...lol. All NC people please tell me that sometime soon all this humidity is going to leave b/c I'm dying in this heat...:(

2005-06-29T12:13:00.000-05:00

Wow call me the blog neglector from hell...lol. Hmmm what's new with me...not much. I've started a new exercise program and feeling good :) :) My secret pal Okieminnie sent me a letter and a postcard and that was the coolest!!! I LOVE SNAILMAIL!!!! Hmm Kath and Kevin came over and that was so much fun:) Jo, J and Mo came over and YEA!! I finally got to meet J!!!! Then this weekend Jaime and Clifton came over that was fun! We're having a bbq at thier house on the 4th :) Then going to see the fireworks on Bragg...anyone wanna come?? This weekend we are going to see Land of the Dead with J, and Mo. After that I have no idea. I know Matt's sister is goign to try and come up and my brother and SIL and then matt's parents in Aug. Matt leaves so soon. I'm so upset about it. I love being with him!!! He's my best friend and I feel like he just got home and now he's leaving again :( Oh well 6 months isn't that long it just sucks.
Well hopefully I've updated you all :) :)

2005-06-11T10:01:00.000-05:00

Well Ash woke up perfect not a spot on her and in a fairly good mood!! YEA!!! I am SOOO tired. I slept like crap last night. I kept thinking my dumbass husband would call adn tell me when the ehll he's coming home. But seeing as it's almost noon I'm guessing not until Maybe Monday. I shoudln't be so annoyed but I am. It's not that hard to hop online and tell me what the He** is going on.
Looks like the beg problem in my house is almost over. I think once the rain starts up next week though they will be back in full force but as long as keep shifting stuff around and killing the ones I see we should be ok. I am Raid the house again tonight and tommorrow b/c of the upcoming rain. And once payday is here I'm going and getting those granules Heather told me about!!
I'm really just cranky today! We've been inside too much I was afraid to take Ash out while she was sick and now it's hot as Heck out so we're not going anywhere till tonight.
I'm discovering more an more that I am cranky way too much!! I really need to just get over myself and get over things I can't change..KWIM.

2005-06-09T10:58:00.000-05:00

People will never cease to amaze just when you think you know someone they 360 into the rudest, most self involved person ever!!! I mean Im sorry you are going through a rough patch but that doesn't give you the right to ignore any other problems around you. A friend is a friend 24/7/365 not just when the mood strikes!! UGH...Whatever!! I'm too old for this shit!
Matt should be getting home soon. Ash is still pretty sick!! This whole ordeal has been so hard on her!! I can't even begin to describe how it felt to go into her room and see her with that rash on her!! The fevers were so scary!! I really wish Matt had been here for this. I took pictures so he could see what it looks like in case it happens again. Mom said it happened to me 3 times before I turned 3!! Some of the kids get seizures b/c their fever's shoot up so quickly!!
Mo, Melly, Lindsay, Sandy,Jenn, Mandy Thank you so much for letting me vent about this!! Poor Sara I vent to you about everything...lol. I appreciate you all SO SO much!! It's so hard when things bad happen to your kids b/c you feel so responsible for them you feel like it's your fault that they happened. I know it's not true but she has had a hell of a month and I feel like there was something I did or didn't do that contributed to all of this! I'm just so glad that it's not scarlett fever!!
Thanks again to all that helped me through this rough patch!!!

2005-06-06T07:04:00.000-05:00

So due to events beyond my control it has become necessary to Potty train Zach completely. Well all that's left is night time. His #2 skills during the day need work but night time I hadn't tried yet. Well we tried last night and Guess what HE WOKE UP DRY!!!! GO ZACH!!!
Also THANK YOU SARA!!!!! Sara suggested trying yogurt for Ash's rash eating it and applying it directly to the rash well I did that and OMG in the morning is usually when Ash is the worst and she woke up this morning with it almost gone!! I did it again this morning and I'm going to do it again tongiht I'm confident it will be gone by tommorrow and then she's starting on eating yogurt twice a day which she LOVES!!!! so THANKS SARA YOU ROCK!!!!

2005-06-05T11:08:00.000-05:00

Today by far is a super shitty day. I'm crying and pissed off and I'm so so angry right now.

2005-06-04T16:28:00.000-05:00

Golly things are so BBBOOORRRIINNNGG around here lately. I miss Matt so so so much. It doesn't help that I went through old pictures of us and I am reading our Korea journals. Matt is a great husband sometimes it's hard to see that...you know. Sometimes you just let the petty and the stupid pile up and you take for granted what you shouldn't I fuss at him alot but he means the world to me and I need to tell him that more. I don't want to be with anyone else but him!!

2005-06-03T17:59:00.000-05:00

today was a long long day. Not much happened. I really really miss matt!!! Ashlee continues to amaze me with how much she is learning to say and how much she understands is so cool!!! She likes to do what she's told which is really really nice :) :) And she says Me Good Girl while she does it..lol. Zach and her have been getting alot wonderfully lately hugging and everything I'm just in shock!!

2005-06-02T17:58:00.000-05:00

so today was a good day. The kids were nice to each other. It rained alot so theat sucked only one bad thing happened today. Obviously in a day filled with handholding and hugging by two little creatures who before today hated each other, a mom such as myself would feel the need to photograph said events. Well not happening..lol. Said mother has lost the camera..lol. I'm cheerful b/c I'm too weary right now not to be but dmanit if I don't find it soon I will go to cranky. I have no idea where it was last b/c Last matt had it. grr.. Ok well I'm off to look for the camera...wish me luck!!

2005-05-31T20:43:00.000-05:00

So Matt's been gone all day day and my mom has been here visiting with the kdis so I've been being lazy ALL DAY...lol. watched ALOT of tv and basically vegged out. I can't wait to go get groceries tommorrow we need them so so bad. I miss matt already and it's only been one day...lol. I'm such a goob...lol

2005-05-30T21:31:00.000-05:00

My little pilot!!

2005-05-30T14:28:00.000-05:00

This was a busy week. Went to the airshow Sat and Sun out to Outback with Katherine and Kevin then over to Jamie and Clifton's today. Matt's packing for his TDY only 12 days but I'll sure miss him..:( That'a about all for today but here's a cute pic!!

2005-05-27T17:10:00.000-05:00

ashlee and Matt

2005-05-26T14:26:00.000-05:00

1) Total number of films I own on DVD/video:

I think like 300

2) The last film(s) I bought:

bought...um Lemony Snicket

3) The last film I watched:

Alien Vs. Predator

4) Five films that I watch a lot or that mean a lot to me (in no particular order):

I like romantic comedy's too. But what I watch the most are horror and action films
Tremors, Halloween, Army of Darkness, Alien Vs Predator, and LOL...I can watch Clueless over and over again..lol

5) Tag 4 people and have them put this in their journal:

I'm tagging Felicia, Toni, Okieminni, and Syndi

2005-05-24T13:02:00.000-05:00

My teeth hurt?? How wierld is that?? Matt is at MPF right now but I won't tell you all why until we find out for sure but I'm SO DAMN EXCITED!!! I can't wait for the air show this weekend Zach is going to have a ball! Zach is so good and so bad at the same time today!! He's been really good with his please's and Thank you's and with his May I's but he's also been really bad with his sister and with minding. But at least he's using good manners while he's not listening to me..LOL. He's been in time out twice today and that's ALOT for him. He's normally in time out maybe once every 3 days but today he's trying to break a record or somehting..LOL. Mo I hope you can come over tommorrow I miss you!!! Is anyone else going to the Air Show this weekend? We should all try and meet up there! Ok I'll fill you all in on MPF later on today!!
Also wanted to add that I LOVE all these comments you all are adding on here!! It's nice to know that someone is reading :)

2005-05-22T11:23:00.000-05:00

Ok FYI guys and girls my blog is going to be really sporadic for the next couple months I'll be good when Matt is gone to Fort Dix and bad when he gets back. We're trying to spend ALOT of time together before he leaves so busy busy busy. We're setting up the slip in slide in the back tommorrow or later today so I'll get tons of pictures of Zach playing!! Not much has gone on here Matt was off yesterday and is off for the next 3 days YEA!!! The air show is this weekend and we are def. going so we'll take tons of pictures there too. For once everything is going really good today!! The kids are being good I even got to lay out a little bit! Kath I did forget to mention you, you are a great friend and I'm so happy that I met you here! I love all you guys and I don't know where I'd be without you!!

2005-05-20T13:16:00.000-05:00

ashlee's new dress

2005-05-18T14:23:00.000-05:00

I am I admit I'm a blog neglecter..LOL. I've been so busy and icky lately that I haven't had time to do much!! But I do have a nice burn on my shoulders and chest..LOL. It looks quite lovely I might add...J/K. This whole situation with Matt has really made me reevalute friendships and etc. And I just gotta say Mo you rock!!! You really are such a good friend!!! I am lucky to have met you!
Ok I'm going to go give Ash and Zach a bath god knows they need it. I promise I'll get better at writing. Also Melly it was AWESOME meeting you I didn't get to talk to you much but hopefully we can meet up another time!!

2005-05-09T21:02:00.000-05:00

Well today was pretty busy I helped someone move this morning then babisat Jo this afternoon, Only the best kid ever...lol. Thanks for the pants Mo btw I LOVE THEM!! I put them on once you left and I've been wearing them every since!! So comfy!! And kath I havn't talked to you but Mo left you a book here so LMK if you want me to drop if off. Ashlee has an apt at 730am in the morning tommorrow I'm really really worried about her she's in alot of pain and this has been going on for like 2 weeks now!! That is WAY too long. And to make things fun Zach seems to be SUPER allergic to somethign b/c his eyes are red and swollen up so he gets to go in in the morning too. I think moving to NC broke the kids...LOL. They are never never sick and they have both been more sick since Jan then they have in their whole lives!! It's really driving me nuts. I'm so stressed out right now and I just don't feel like I have anyone to really bitch to about it. I don't want to bring anyone down. I think if one more thing goes wrong right now I'm going to snap. B/t the kids and Matt's deployment I'm really stressed out. Ok Ok I'm done for today..lol.

2005-05-07T15:24:00.000-05:00

my house really is fish death camp...lol. But we still have 5 in the big tank plus 2 snails and our 2 betas are still doing great...so maybe it's the big aquarium seeing as 2 have died in there. We're having trouble keeping the water not cloudy. I'm tempted to keep changing the water but that's part of the reason it's cloudy I don't think changing the water every day is all that good for the fish either. Hopefully nomore will die though...lol.
I'm so down lately just so blah. I don't talk to many people anymore and I'm sick of part time friends. I mean if your my friend then be here for me during the good and the bad don't skate out during the bad!?! I'm just feeling really sad lately I guess.
Ash had to go back to the er today that wasn't fun and after 4 freaking hours all they said was keep putting the ointment on and it'll get better..Um not good enough for me so Monday we're going to see if we can get her in for an afternoon apt. I'm sorry but when you get me medicine and after 1 week and 1 1/2 (2 weeks on Tues) there is no change and said rash is now BLEEDING!!! and you're only advice is let her not wear a diaper during the day until it clears up. You can kiss my arse...lol. Womack blows I wouldn't take my dying dog there. Matt waiting for 3 hours and finally went up and said look I'm on duty the triage nurses are stanging there with their hands up their own asses my infant daughter is bleeding WTH. The waiting room was pratically empty!! So after having a security guard tell him to calm down I'm guessing the dumb bitch at the receptionist table decided to let Ash get seen!!! To make matters worse some guy was pushing a stroller in and his wife passed out behind him he tried to catch her but failed. Well in a normal caring not crazy hospital they would have rushed to her right!! Well not a womack he ran to the desk and said my wife just passed out I need a strecher or something this ignorant POS (same lady mind you) actually pointed to a wheelchair and said there's a wheelchair?!? I mean what the hell?!? You are an ER your job is to help people not sit there and twiddle your thumb while your ass gets bigger!! So my point being I am never going there. I don't care if my arm is half hanging off the bone PLEASE drive the extra 15 mins and take me to Cape Fear.
Well while ash was gone I washed her sheets she had peed all over them (right out her diaper!!) and I had to clean the mattress etc. well I had her nakie and wondering around per doctor's orders and of course trying to catch her when she peed well she peed ... where you ask...Right on her pile of clean bed sheets. Figures once you clean peed on sheets said sheet offender should be allowed to pee on them again before they make it to the bed. I was so stressed by this point that I just laughed. I put her on the toliet...lol. She laughed she has no idea what to do on there she's 19 months...lol. If anything this adventure will help her to learn what goes on down there and hopefully help her potty train earlier then her brother...lol. Although she does HATE being naked. She walked around and when she'd find a clean diaper she would bring it to me and lay down...I felt bad b/c I kept saying no honey I cna't and she just kept crying!! Poor thing :(
So I call my mom yestereday and ask her about Sun it's mother's day does she want to come by for dinner. Does she say yes?!? Noooo she says well honey it's up to you do you want me to? If that isn't the most infuriating thing ever. First I don't ask things I don't want to do. Second I have more to do then feed your ego. I said you just want me to beg you don't you she laughed and said well it would be nice?!? What the Hell?!? I thought it was nice making a dinner you like and a desert you like on mother's day!! None of the foods I'm making I like!! I'm a mother too but does that cross her mind nooo. as usual it's her her her.
Ok now that I've typed a book I'm goign to go...lol. Thanks for reading my massive vent :) :)

2005-05-06T11:37:00.000-05:00

We've had 2 fish fatalities this week :( Goldfish sure love to die. So far the fish death toll in this house is 5...lol. First we had the suicidel beta that leapt into the drain..lol. Then we had the belly up beta...lol. Then in the small tank we had a goldfish go belly up and now in the new big tank we've had 2. The rest better stay and my beautiful white angel koi better stay around for awhile I just love him...lol.
So good news!! Mrs. Kath (as most of you know already) is pregnant!!! She SO deserves to be!!! I've never seen two people who would make better parents!! They are so loving and caring and I just know they will be great parents!! So congrats you guys!! We love you!!
Not much going on here today I worked out a little. I need to work out alot but yeah I'm lazy...lol.
Today Zach told me I want to grow up to be as big as daddy!!! It was SOOO cute!! I just love my kiddies :)
I know you all love my photo collage I made it super big so you can see the pictures. Thanks Melly and Robin for helping me with that. I am such a dumbass on the computer..lol. Well I better go get the kids up. I am so so tired lately :( Hopefully next week I can see about getting that IUD put in until Matt can get snipped. No more pills for me...LOL

2005-05-06T11:36:00.000-05:00

photo colloge

2005-05-05T08:26:00.000-05:00

I am so so tired....feet dragging and all. Matt's schdule is fixing to kick my arse...lol. They keep changing things on him. They even tried to tell him he was leaving for 6 weeks this sat to go to 7 level school...he was like um are you trying to get me killed b/c my wife will kill me....lol. He tests for staff on the 16th and they were like oh yeah guess you can't go...Ummm DUR. Then at the end of this month or next he's goign to sniper school for 3 weeks and then he leaves in Sept. First they say no then yes then no...so now I'm planning on yes. I hate all this indecsivnesss it wasn't like this at Luke!! I am so ready for him to either move me back to AZ or to crosstrain!! But he has an appt next week so wish him luck!!!!

2005-05-04T09:39:00.000-05:00

ok ok I'm updating...LOL.
Hmmmm. Wow friday was my last post!! Sometimes time just gets away from you...lol. I've seen ALOT of miss Katherine this week and I love her so much!!! She's just like this ball full of happy energy adn you can't help but be in a good mood around her. It's just nice to have a good friend again. I babisat Jo on Monday for miss Mo :) Jo is so so so much fun!! Zach really adores him. I wish I'd see mo more she's so fun too :) Although I will confess to haveing nightmares about Doctor Satan..LOL. seriously people MOST DISTURBING MOVIE EVER is def. House of 1000 corpses. It's unpleasent and slightly disturbing until the guy skins this girls father and wears the skin and then they drop them into a pit of sorts and they getting "operated" on by Dr. Satan. Must tell you this is where the film goes from EWWW to OMG I CAN'T WATCH!!!! But on a scarce the shit out of you during it gets a D I wasn't scared at all watching it, really grossed out but more like a watching a train wreck happen kind of thing. But on the scare the shit out of you later scale it gets a A. I keep thinking about That Dr. and his goggled friend...EWWW...shivers....lol. And let me tell you that I will NEVER go camping now!! Or pick up a hitchiker..lol. I was so sad that the clown guy was bad I thought he was just eccentric (aside from killing the robbers...hmmm...were the robbers the chicken?!?) but nope he's evil. And the ending!! I mean come on!! Someone has to escape...lol.
Well I'm waiting on the maintenence guy to get here and fix my drain.....they are never here when they say they will :(
Well I love all the comments guys so keep em coming!!!

2005-04-29T22:37:00.000-05:00

You know you LOVE how many pics are on my blog :) :) :) I am going to get around to putting a link to the pics of the kids on here so you all will have to click on something to see the kiddies in all their cuteness :) :) :) Today was lousy!! First off I can't get these awful snopes images out of my head!! Driving me batty. 2nd again no sleep last night and seeing as it's almost midnight I doubt there is sleep tonight. I'm mad I'm not going to the movie this weekend. I'm just cranky as he** lately...lol. Today Zach is driving on the couch and I'm laying down Ash is in bed when all of the sudden ***SMASH!!** a lightbuld falls out of our ceiling fan and lands on the ground?!? How strange is that?!? There are light peices everywhere so I had to clean all that up. I was SO unmotivated today. Tommorrow I will do pilaties and work out my belly and take the kids for a walk and clean the house and clean the hallway rugs!! I'm so frustrated so much to do but not enough time and NEVER enough money...LOL. Ok this is now begining to sound like the ramblings of an exhausted person!?!? Why's that you wonder .... HMMM probably b/c it is...lol.

2005-04-29T11:34:00.000-05:00

zach getting his groove on...LOL

2005-04-29T11:32:00.000-05:00

my fave pic of Ashlee

2005-04-29T11:31:00.000-05:00

her first bottom teeth

2005-04-29T11:29:00.000-05:00

look how small my baby was :) I miss them being so small

2005-04-29T06:10:00.000-05:00

YEA!! My blog is SO pretty!!! Kath came over and helped me with it!! Prepare to be bombarded with pics of my kids :) Yesterday started out rough!! I couldn't sleep and when I finally did it was like 4 am and I woke up at 530-6am so needless to say I was TIRED!! I cleaned the house and b/c my dear dear husband is incapable of doing the things I ask then I decided I was going to clean out the storage closet and I piled up all his random crap in the computer room so now he'll have to go through it. Didn't work so well b/c he had a late commander's call then came home went through one pile and went to bed...lol. But to be fair he helped me clean up outside for like and hour before he went to commander's call so he did help out. Well Kath came over and we went on a walk!! I hope she keeps walking with me when she gts the chance I hate walking by my lonesome. I love the kids but they just arn't good conversationalists...lol. Then we came home and after failing at the grill we ate then weeded the front yard. There's still alot of work...(hint hint kath...lol) but it was fun!! I am so ready to start planting!! I want to plant live plants but I have a feeling it's going to be cheaper to go the seed route. I am not one for delayed gratifacation so who knows.... I was SO mad at matt. He keeps claiming he can do the bills well last month he was like fine look I suck you do them but then he was keeping his own records anyway and of course he'd write his charges there adn not tell me so I was like 200 bucks off!!! UGH. Well I went though the bills and there was like a STACK of deliquent bills!! UM WHY!! When he was gone for that year NOT ONCE did I miss paying any bill!!! he's home for 3 months and now we are delienquent on like 5!! Ok so now I'm doing the bills again... FUN FUN ok ashlee is whineing to come out of her high chair....

2005-04-28T12:53:00.000-05:00

Here is Zach

2005-04-28T09:58:00.000-05:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2005-04-28T08:11:00.000-05:00

my couch!!

2005-04-28T08:10:00.000-05:00

zach cheesing

2005-04-28T07:58:00.000-05:00

ok I like this skin better but MO i lost my counter!! Help me PUUULLLEEAAZZZEEE!!! Poor Ashlee has a rash so I had to take her to the ER today!! She screamed everytime I changed her diaper and was physically trying to get my hands away when I tried to wipe her or put on desitin. I called the docs here and they were like well let her run around naked most of the day and we can fit you in tommorrow...um...NO. Plus she was freaking out everytime she peed that means NOW in mommyspeak...lol. Well she got some cream and the side effect is BURNING, ITCHING and STINGING!!! Yeah and wouldn't you know that's what happening!! UGH. HA HA I kept bugging matt to help me go through the spare room storage and he keeps putting it off most of that crap is his anyway. Well I organized the really obvious shit but the crap I don't know what to do with is now in 2 huge piles on the comp desk bet he'll go through it now...LOL.

2005-04-26T08:26:00.000-05:00

Ok I better update my blog...LOL. I'm sitting here dying for a smoke...THANKS MO...LOL. and smelling a codi fart!! I swear the dog just stinks SO much!!! I am SO tired!! I'm giong to nap while the kids nap. Sat we went to the Dogwood Festival with Kath and Kev and Sun I went shopping then our neighbors came over for a cookout. Monday Matt helping some friends (aquatinences really) move and they bought us pizza for dinner. We fought ALOT yesterday but that's ok. I asked Kath and Kevin to be thekids godparetns!! And they said yes!! So I'm so excited!! Although I feel like I should do something like have a party or send out a newsletter and I don't know what to tdo...LOL. Well I'm going to go and get some sleep.

2005-04-21T17:26:00.000-05:00

Today was a long long day I took the kids for a walk and we played outside alot it was a beautiful day!! That's all I really have to say for today I'm really cranky and people keep pissing me off....LOL. Oh well they are probably making me mad b/c I'm cranky ... You know. I am really easy to anger today...LOL.

2005-04-20T10:21:00.000-05:00

Well it's been a busy weekend!! Zach's party went great!! I was so nervous!! I always make an ass out of myself but Matt was SUCH a help! He did however find it amusing that I used up half a bottle of pinesol cleaning the house...LOL> Mo and Kath and Kevin helped me put stuff together for the party they were such helps!! Mo and Kath I know you read this but I couldn't have done it without you!! I love you guys!! Jo is SO cute!! I got the cutest pic of him stuck in the kids play shopping cart! That kid is just great!! It's so great when your child finally makes a friend with a nice normal polite child!! I love Jo!! There seems to be alot of drama abound but I don't want to talk about it here so if you'd like to say something to me and you're reading this then please email me. If you go my blog addy then I know you can get my email addy :) But for the record I have no problems with anyone I just wish we could ALL get along...LOL. Also 2 words ANGER MANAGEMENT! it works give it a try!! Therapy too...both are very good options. At any rate!! I love my neighbors!! They are great!! They come over just to say hi and let us borrow their lawnmower they are just really really good people you don't find that too often. I'm so sad they are moving :( And there son Eli could no be cuter!!! He is just ADORABLE!!! Ok well I'm done bitching moaning and rambling for now probably not for the day but for now. But side note it really makes me so sad that people have so much anger in them. I wish there was something I could do to help them...You know...but you can't b/c they can't see past their anger. I would hate to live like that.

2005-04-16T11:06:00.000-05:00

Well it's noon Saturday. Mom's here so I get to sleep in. I just got up a little bit ago and ate my diet food...UGH....it was good though. A mini can of fruit and some crackers with Hummus. I will lose weight I PROMISE!! I'm about to go work out. I feel just so Grossed out with myself lately. I've really been doing SO bad about working out and all that I mean to but I just really really suck at it and it seems I never have time. When Matt was gone for that year ash was taking 2 naps so during her first nap Zach and I would go up to my room and he'd watch tv while I biked for like 30 mins then we'd play after ash got up and during their nap I'd catch up on dishes nad laundry and etc. then I'd Go lift weights and do crunches and etc. Then at night we'd go on walks. So I was getting A TON of exercise but now I'm not getting anything. At nap time if noone is here then I clean clean clean Matt is of no help at all he leaves crap everywhere and I have to clean it all up along with all the damn dog and cat fur!! I just feel so drained but it's so dumb b/c I wouldn't feel like that if I'd just get off my fat lazy butt!! I was SO proud of myself for how good I was doing then Matt comes back and now all my spare time is cleaning and being with him I have no time to do stuff for me. Even with mom here I have to catch up on cleaning and there is SO much to do!! I miss carpet I have to sweep twice a day to cut down on the fur and I have to vaccum the rug EVERYday! I was vaccuming everyday in AZ but I didn't have to sweep everyday b/c it was a different tile. OH well I just feel lousy today so I'm bitching I'm goign to stop now...LOL. I wish I'd win the lottery and I could hire a maid to help me clean then lipo all my fat out then do something with my chest and then Sleep. I just want to sleep for days!!! LOL...ok I'm going to stop now..LOL

2005-04-12T19:48:00.000-05:00

Long Day!! Matt let me sleep in YEA!!! I woke up feeling like dog poo but I'm starting to feel better now..:) :) But mental note to self: husband sitting around all day = DIRTY HOUSE!! After I got up I stumbled into the computer room and posted while drinking my diet coke and waiting for matt to put the little ones to nap. He got done and we cuddled on the couch then showered then got ready for the task of going to the doctor with Ashlee. With a normal child this would be no big deal but with Ash you have to come with ammo and for her it was in the shape of a small pink carebear wearing bunny ears..lol. She cried the whole time we were there and since I was at the docter's I decided I would ask what was up with the vesectomy lady never called us back...well lo and behold my doctor is the vesectomy lady and she had put his name on the list already. At first I was like YES then I was like Ok I'm going to kill someone. She filled me in on something I didn't know there is a wait list for this!! And it's 8 months long!!!! I am so pissed off!! he'll be Iraq when his name comes up so first thing when he steps on American soil is clip it...LOL. Then we went to the JAG office to get a POA for my father in law. Zach spit on the floor while we were there!!! I tried not to spank the tar out of him and sent him to his daddy who put him in the car and there they waited. I was so mad I was seeing red!! He knows not to spit!! I couldn't believe I watched him do it!! He was surprisingly good the rest of the day?!? Well now I'm just waiting on dear matt to finish putting the new rotors on the jeep. He thinks they are the wrong ones!! Um this is your 2nd try buddy get it right!! Tommorrow Miss Mo is dropping of Mr. Jo and I'm going to babisit. Zach is going to have a BALL!! But I'm going to go sleep hope you all are enjoying my insane ramblings..:) :) :)

2005-04-11T18:14:00.000-05:00

Ok I've come to the conclusion that I'm not sick. It has got to be allergies!! It gets worse when I leave the house and I dont' have body aches or anything so next week I'm going to make an appt and hopefully get on something other then Claratin which obviously does not work...LOL
Not much happening today, I did discover that slip covers for couches suck!! Matt and I bought some for our couches and they went back after 2 hours, it just looked SO horrible. Hopefully one day we'll be able to afford new couches!!!

2005-04-08T16:30:00.000-05:00

I Feel so terrible today it's not even funny :( I feel all congested and crappy and SO tired!! THANK GOD MOM IS HERE TOMMORROW!!! I'm going to Katherine's Pampered Chef party and I'll be running on E if I don't get to sleep tonight. I think I am feeling allergies and a major lack of sleep!! The past two nights Matt has kept me up all night. Snoring or rolling over and kicking me or getting up and talking. It's SO annoying!! If he keeps it up he can couch it for all I care. I need sleep!!! I had no idea how much these 14 hour days would suck! He comes home and eats then sleeps we barely talk we def don't do anything else...LOL. 4 days a week it's like living with a zombie...LOL.
So far the planning for Zach's bday is NOT going good, I think I'm just going to cancel. I'm so sick of putting myself out there and then nothing.

2005-04-07T00:24:00.000-05:00

Ok I officially do not understand Hello and Picasa...lol. I swear to you I uploaded that pic of Ashlee like Sat and it's only today Wednesday night posting onto my blog?!? STRANGE!! I swear my blog is possessed...LOL. Not much went on today my mom was here so I didn't have to be mom so that was GREAT for a change!! I Pine Sol'd the whole house!! It smelt so GOOD. Then dh came waltzing in wearing his shoes. I could've killed him. But at least he remembered to get the ground beef..lol. Ashlee was SO cranky today. I know she's not sick so I think I'm going to make an apt. and see if it's allergies. It's only her nose all stopped up and she is really cuddley and acts like she doesn't feel good but there's no fever and no cough and it's white stuff not yellow or anything. So hopefully it's just allergies and she can be on something to help her feel better.
I met a girl from one of my boards the other day at the park. She brought her 2 1/2 year old son and he was SO polite!! He was SUCH a good kid!!! I really liked him and her!! They were both so nice!! I'm meeting such nice people here!!

2005-04-04T23:53:00.000-05:00

diva in training

Fun Long Weekend

2005-04-04T23:19:00.000-05:00

Well This has been a LONG LONG weekend but NICE :) I don't have the typical Fri-Sun weekend b/c of matt's schdule our weekend is more like Sun-Tues. Well I went and got Mom on Sat night and Matt and I got to sleep in!! YEA!! Then we went grocery shopping and argued over a cheeseburger..dont' ask LONG STORY...LOL. Then I took Mom home and we hung out with the kids and then Katherine and Kevin came over for dinner. They are really just SO fun to hang out with. It's never akward we can talk about ANYTHING and we do...LOL. They are one of those easy going couples that you just wish everyone was like...LOL. Today we did the family thing all day and Matt set up Zach's train in his room!! It's official we can't buy anymore train stuff his room is FULL. It's going to go up in about a week then he'll want it reassembled a week after that. It's just too big to keep up full time. And we are SO ebaying this damn thing once he gets too old to use it...lol. Another couple was suppossed to come to dinner tonight and they totally stood us up!! I have NEVER had that happen before!! I am hoping I got the days wrong but I don't think so.
Zach turns 4 in like 15 days!!! HE'S GETTING SO BIG!! I can't believe he's getting so old!! And he is SO MUCH FUN!! He's not whiney he doesn't need you to constently amuse him, hardly any tantrums, he is so curious about everything and it's SO cool to hear his interpratations of everyday things...LOL. We got him a happymeal Sun night and when we brought it back he was just SO thrilled. He said a HAPPY MEAL for ME!!!! WOW Thanks MOMMY!!! This is for sure the best age!! Ashlee is fun and super cuddley but man these tantrums are driving me nuts but I am NOT going to give in! People always think well if I give them what they want then they will be quiet. Um no that just means that they will whine and fuss for EVERYTHING. We are strick with the kids but so far Zach's turned out alright. I see other people complaining about how they can't take thier kids anywhere or how they have to fight them to do the most basic things!! Kids are SO much happier with rules and routines. It gives them a sense of control in a world that is anythign but.
My Best Friend Steph sent me a box of stuff from Amazon for the kids!! It was awesome!! A Casey the Kinderbot cartidge and a floor mat for Zach's bday and a talking CareBear for Ash. That girl will not let that Carebear go...LOL. She just hugs it and hugs it she loves that it talks to her...lol. Strangely though my dog Codi runs from it like it's possessed....lol.

2005-03-25T12:05:00.000-05:00

I want to get one of those counter thingys on here.
Yesterday was awful I hardly left the bed I was so congested and I look like rudoulf!!! Not to mention that I kept shivering even though I was under like 4 blankets!! I hate being sick today doesn't look much better but at least I am functioning. My SIL and her boyfriend will be tonight so I am excited about hat. They are bringing thier dog which I'm not to excited about but mabye it will go well we'll see.

2005-03-23T08:19:00.000-05:00

Man I feel so SHITTY right now!!! My throat hurts my nose won't quit running just UGH. Zach isn't much better he graced the world for good at 430 this morning and so since Matt was already up and getting ready to go to work I let him watch a movie in my room. Well he hurled all over my bed...YUMM. So now we're both feeling like shit. Ashlee is running around just fine though :) She's a little mad at me though b/c I am trying not to hold her that much I just don't want to get her sick!! It's so rainy and icky out!!! I so wish matt wasn't working today :( I hate this new schdule I mean 14 hours!!! he leaves at 5 and gets home at 7 and then he eats and he's so tired he's asleep by 9. I get to see him hungry tired and cranky for 2 hours 4 days a week!! He's so much help though on his days off!!

2005-03-22T22:57:00.000-05:00

Yeah it's 11 and I so have to be up at 6 with a 3 year old but I have a feeling I might be getting up earlier then that. Then why you may be asking am I awake?!? Well that would be b/c my son is sick! He goes to bed at 6 and has been getting up about every 30 mins crying b/c he's so stuffed up and feels so crappy. Hmm...what are the chances that now ashlee will get sick?!? HMMMM DEFINITELY!!! Oh well I could bitch from now until 6 and still be just as mad.........
I am currently reading Stephen King's Nightmares and Dreamscapes and it starts off like this....
"When I was a kid I believed everything I was told, everything I read, and every dispatch sent out by my own overheated imagination. This made for more then a few sleepless nights, but it also filled the world I lived in with colors and textures that I would not have traded for a lifetime of restful nights." And I got to thinking about my own overheated imagination...LOL. And I started wondering that if my belief in everything my mind can concoct mean that I never grew up?!? Silly I know but other people have such an easy time rationalizing things. And it's never been that easy for me. I always think what if and maybe and why not. While everyone else seems to be thinking it couldn't and never. For instance I recently saw the Ring 2 and while it was a terrifyingly stupid movie part of me was like somewhere there might be a dead creepy girl crawling out a tv..LOL. Silly I know but my imagination keeps me up at night thinking but what if. Just b/c it's never happened doesn't mean it never will. While I am certain that no, no creepy dead girl will ever crawl out of my tv. It def. adds up to a lot of restless nights and what I wouldn't give for a restful one...LOL.
Wow let me tell you staying up at night leads to alot of night ramblings...LOL. I was just sitting here thinking about how much I missed having that one close friend you could bitch to, the one who would always understand you, the one you talk to 20 times a day for no apparent reason then to gab about absolute nonesense. The one you can't go a week without seeing at least twice!! I miss that!! It seems that those good friendships only come in high school and once you have it if you don't hold on you may never find it again.

2005-03-22T19:23:00.000-05:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2005-03-22T19:04:00.000-05:00

I have ever told you all how much I love my husband?? I do!! He's awesome!! I woke up this morning and I felt shitty and he was like go to bed I'll take care of the kids. He brought me food and took care of everything I didn't have to do much of anything!! I love him!!
It's going to rain today it looks all dreary out :( I begining to wonder if it ever DOESN'T rain here in NC.

2005-03-20T17:56:00.000-05:00

Ok I'm fairly new at this so I'm going to do my best and not screw up...LOL. Today was awesome!! I woke up late (mom was here) and we got ALOT done that needed to be done around the house. It was SUCH a nice day out so we decided to take the Zachman out for a wagon ride he had SUCH a blast!!! I get so worried about him....he is so quiet and shy around other kids and I'm not sure he knows how to ineract with them. He gets his feelings hurt alot and he seems to just do whatever the other kid wants to do (that's if he gets close enough to them at all) and follow them around like a puppy!! I really need to get him into playgroups and such and help him build up his confidence around other kids. Kids can be so damn mean sometimes though!!!